Day 8

Things that make you sad

Oh come on. Do I really have to answer this? There are a lottttttt of things that make me sad! Then how the hell did I almost got into a major depression state? Well, here we go. I am not gonna write anything depression and ruin my day because it's Valentine's day!

When things are not the same like it used to be. I hate it when things change. However, life without changes is just... impossible. Of course things change. Nothing will stay the same because nothing lasts forever. As long as the clock still ticks, nothing will stay the same. Things change, people change, I change.

Being left out. I hate being or feeling left out the most!!! Like, when my friends in Johor or Singapore hanging out while I am here stuck in Shah Alam all alone. I want to be there! Rawrrrrrr! The only thing I hate about being an aries!

When my favourite tv show ends. I don't have to explain. 

Day 7

A show or a movie that has changed you, and how

Honey and Clover anime series. It completely changed my life 360 degrees. It changed the way I think, feel, see things and what not. I used to be a girl who is afraid to even walk with my head up. I looked down when I walk. I was a person with a really low self-esteem. I didn't believe in myself, I didn't have the courage to speak up, to act. I still am but better. I hated my self back then. But Honey and Clover has taught me a lot about things. It changed the way I see things about life and people, and the way I see myself. It also taught me the real meaning of love. We can't have everything we want. That God gives us what we NEED, not what we WANT.

Pain, depression, anger, fear, loneliness. Who has never dealt with it before? This anime taught me how to deal with it, not run away from it. And it is by being grateful for what I have and appreciate every little things and every moments.. That is the only way we can truly be happy.

Day 6

Something you would like to change about yourself

Wow.. There's a lot I want to change about my self. I am grateful for what I have and for what I am. But there is only one thing I want to change about myself. I want my brain to stop over thinking! It's hard! To overthink every single things. And not only it makes me get headache all the time, it also affects my life. It affects my mood, people around me, my routine.. EVERYTHING!! 

Day 5

Okay I've missed a week of the challenge! My bad >_< . Been so busy with the Chinese New Year and taking care of my mom and my sick boyfriend.  Anyways, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

Something you would change about the world

No money currency difference, no tax, NO WAR!


What You Want In Life?

Okay I still owe 2 days for the 365 days challenge. But I am not in mood to write. I am not in the mood to do anything at all. It happened again.. I feel like I'm surrounded by dementors. I need to a wand so I can cast the patronus charm.

I stumbled onto this on twitter. Try it. 

I got;

  • Time
  • Happiness
  • Honesty

It's freaky cause it's true. The 3 things I want most in life. I need it.


I'll be away for few days for Chinese New Year. I wish I can fast forward time and just skip it. CNY used to be fun.. But it's not the same anymore. Not without my grandparents, my dad and my fav auntie.. Now it's gonna be depressing. I don't know if I can do it.

And CNY also means that I am gonna be away from D. And we are not gonna be able to celebrate our 2nd monthsary. I don't know if I could be away from him!! We meet everyday for 2 months without a miss. There goes our record :( Sighhhh!

Day 4

Before that.... Okay I missed 2 days. I can't believe I am already having troubles to do this challenge. I got issues! >_<

How you think your life would change if you achieved your dream?

Everything would change. I'm gonna be married and sitting at the front porch reading 50 Shades while enjoying the sound of birds chirping... That's not gonna happen because .. we don't have a nice front porch in Malaysia. Maybe in rural area. Sooo... na ah!!

Well, I have a lot of dreams though.... Long terms.. short terms..... I'll go with the moderate term. Lol.

As I was saying.. Everything would be totally different. I am gonna be financially stable, married my Mr Perfect.. And I won't be in Malaysia because I would probably be somewhere, travelling.. visiting zoos and diving!!

Okay I don't know what else to write. Writer's block!


Day 3

What you think your reason for being here is?

A friend slash mentor of mine once said, everyone should have a contribution to life. I am still trying to figure out what do I have to offer? I am most unlikely have anything big to give.. But I think I am here to be a good friend to everyone even my enemies. Yes. I am THAT kind. Or should I use "stupid" instead? It's just me.. you know. I will give help to anyone that needs help and came to me. Because I believe that God created each of us to play a big part in life.

I want to make everyone know their worth. I want to make them see what they have in them. Make them realize what the future has to offer if they don't waste their time chasing after the past.

How? I don't know yet. Maybe thru spoken words or maybe in written form. Who knows.


Day 2

Something that’s illegal but you think it should be legal

Was gonna say killing people should be legal because I just wan't to kill some people for a veryyy good reason but then... I won't live so long too if killing people is made legal. Hahs.

So, I think that.. Downloading pirated movies, music and apps should be legal!!


Day 1

Hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself

There's a lot that I'm expecting from 2013. Hoping that this year will bring me happiness, wealth and joy. I've been through too much pain these past few years.. And I don't want to feel the pain again. It's the feeling that I fear so much, that I could not bear to feel one more time. The pain of losing those who are very dear to me.. My dad, my god father, my uncle and auntie. I couldn't express the feelings in words. But I don't want to be inundated by that pain. This year will be different!

I know my dreams are beyond reach but it is possible. All it takes is effort. Anything is possible. I am not going to dream to own a big ass castle, Lamborghini as an addition. Or marry a royal. All I want is to build a new life with MY prince. Build our own castle together. If you know what I mean. It may seems a bit rush. But I've known him almost half of my life. And it's just a dream anyway. But a dream with plans :)

I will make every endeavour to climb my way up to the cloud 9. Hoping to see myself living my dream in 365 days. I'm not alone in this. Me and D will work hard to achieve our dreams together. For me, I want my own boutique while D, he wants his own cafe. For now we are going to run an online boutique together. Very soon. It's gonna be our first step! I hope everything will goes smoothly according to plan. And we are going to be busy with our networking. It's the fastest way to achieve our dreams. More like a short cut. How do you expect for us to achieve it within 365 days. I want to retire young, retire rich.. These are my plans for now. There will be more though. But that's all I got for now. 

Oh wells.. These are the things that I hope I can accomplish within 365 days. With the plans I have, I hope I can make my dream comes true! Good night! Oh, before that.. Here's a picture of me.. I never did this before! I SWEAR! Okay I did. But I never posted it anywhere. This picture would definitely be a picture I wanna see in 365 days and have a good laugh at it, and think.... "What was I thinking?! But fuck it I am already where I wanna be now."

Crazy picture as a start for a crazy journey!

Peace yo!

Good night! 

365 Days Challenge

I am going to do the 365 days shit challenge! AGAIN! Well, I didn't finish the last one I did few years back. I am going to finish this one! I hope so... Here it goes.. again.

Doing it with Momo. We will see who's going to finish this challenge. I bet I won't =x. But I will definitely try to put all my effort on it. Jia you! I can do this!




You shout it loud, but I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud, not saying much
I'm criticized, but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium

Cut me down, but it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud, not saying much

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium

I am titanium

I am titanium

Stone hard, machine gun
Fired at the ones who run
Stone hard, as bulletproof glass

You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down, but I won't fall
I am titanium

I am titanium